F**K those people who have bad mouthing me about my carreer. Is it so difficult to start your own carreer without having people saying nasty things about it? Are you just f***king jealous or what? And what is it about being so glamourous working in the industry that I'm in. Forgodness sake people, I've not even start my training!
Give me some space to breathe!
How glamour can you be by serving people hot coffee or tea?? Think about it!!

*susah sangat ke nak cari rezeki yang halal?? takde keja jadi cakapan orang, dapat keja pun jadi cakapan orang. Tak faham betul orang yang bodoh ni semua. Dulu, kau jugak yang berura-ura sangat suruh aku try interview sinilah sanalah, but than, bila aku dah dapat, kau cakap yang bukan bukan lak. Nak cakap kau kolot, tapi kau educated, cikgu lagi kat secondary school. Haiz. Kalau iri hati sangat pun, tak payah lah nak cakap bukan bukan kat mama aku.
.'KALAU TAK SUKA DIAM, KALAU SUKA KASI PERANGSANG'.
Nilah orang melayu kita, susah betul nak maju.
Uuurg tak sabar sangat aku nak pergi Night Safari this Sat. Aku rasa tengok babi hutan kat Zoo tu lebih nikmat daripada teringatkan muka kau yang kuali kemek.

Pan's Labyrinth Haha... He was right, the above should win World's Most Pathetic Villian Award.

Netherless, I can't believe that I actually uttered those 'uh mampos kau' words in the cinema without realising that someone is laughing at me by my side.

Whatever it is. Never eat his juicy grapes.LOL.
A 'must watch' movie for everyone this year. Excellent storyline. I really love it.

Big shouts out to cuzzie Ihsan and dearest girl friend Feeza for celebrating their birthday bash last night. Happy living on the earth for 9 yrs to R. Ihsan and 21 years to Feeza.hmm don't you find her stunning! Hahaaa I still owe a couple of birthday gifts now!The night out at the party with the birthday girl.

(sorry babes, I have to crop out my face in the pic coz I kinda look weird)

One of my latest print. Featuring Heidi Klum.

Specially dedicated to MizRina;

"..the day when you can't get into the kebaya.. hahahah.. It's alright sweetie, I know those boobs are real.."

"Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts. If we don't change, we don't grow. If we don't grow, we aren't really living."

There will be lots of new changes in my life this year.

Beloved sister will soon become someone's wife. She will have whole set of new environment waiting for her.

Mama will be soon resting at home on her rocking chair waiting to be a hopeful grandma.

And as for me, it will definitely be a stepping stone experiencing my carreer on how tough isit being in a working life.

We must have a theme, a goal and a purpose in our lives. If you don't know where you're aiming, you don't have a goal. I guess the keyword for making this to happen is discipline. I believe we must all suffer from one of two pains: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. And of course the difference is discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons.

Anyway Ayah's birthday is in weeks time. Me and sis hoping to meet him and hopefully we could share the joy that we will be adapting in future.

"Ayah, I just could feel that you will be overwhelmed for what is going to happen. I guess both of us have make you happy thou you can't really share it with us perfectly. Ayah, do you know that I used to have this dream, about us, about our family, about me and sis, making you and mama so proud. Taking our family portrait with smiles and happiness."

Netherless, I thank god for whatever happened in my family and I do appreciate for what I'm left with.

I believed that things happened for reasons.

I believed that one of the greatest gifts that god gave me is the very special love that mama, sis and me share. As years go by, it's good to know that there will always be certain people in our lives who care... For there are countless things that only us have in common and memories that no one else can make.These precious ties that bind us together are bonds that time and distance cannot break. How fortunate we are when we have our love ones to love us, coz it makes the world a happy place to be.

Her shots are excellent. One of my favourite Photographer/Photo editor.

.wordsforsnow.

"FWAhAHAHhaAHhaHAhAhAhAhhahahahAhAHhaHahaHAhaaaa.............
our baby boy has grown up to be a gorgeous, working, young man ah.... still designing stuffs lah but now you r paid to do it?..... aim for the freaking sky bradder...aku tetap hensem cuma phase tukar....sekarang aku gorgeous!!!! FWhaHaHAhaAhAHHAhaaa.......losing weight is easy but maintaining it is freaking hard beb....is DASH still alive beb???miss the usual suspects lah beb.... especially during the FX time.....keep in touch lah bradder...don't be a stranger....tetapi..............." JANGAN LUPA SAKSIKAN CHEF SKUTER, SETIAP AHAD, 11 PAGI, HANYA DI SURIA!!!!!!!" FWhaHaHahahahAHhaHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhahahahahaHaaa...............BelaH!!!! "

That was the email that Bob aka 'chef skuter' send to me last night.
Yah Bob, I miss those time when we were dancing together in Xtreme verviX and FusionX. It was one hell awesome memorable experience when we performed at Hendrix and won champion for the dance category at Youthopia Xclaim about 5 years ago.

Do you still remember those moment? Hahah I bet you will.

.......

Moments with Bob in FusionX

Well, I guess things have changed now. We have grown and each one of us has a phase of life now to work on! So, take care brudder, oh yah my mom loves your 'chef skuter' show in television! Well done!

Feeling so SICK.

The fever and flu diseases seem to be enjoying playing with each other in my body.

Anyway, I don't feel like partying before knowing what's the outcome for my medical review result. So, I stayed home the whole day today and did some random crappy stuffs online. It's quite interesting thou.

Your Japanese Name Is...

Yutaka Yoshida

What's your Japanese Name?

Your Drag Queen Name Is:

Donna Summersault

Drag Queen Name Generator

Your German Name is:

Sascha Holger

What's Your German Name?

Managed to get thru all the rounds of interviews..

Now, it all depends on my medical review.

I hate this feeling.

I just can't wait for the result to be out and start working..

I say alil prayer to God hoping everything going to be alright.

Bon Voyage Mia.
It was one unforgettable moment to see you cried, hugging me so tight when it's time to say goodbye. The red teary eyes on your face shows how reluctant you are leaving your loved ones. How I wished to hug you longer knowing that you will be away for three years.
I wish you the best of luck in your studies and do make us proud yah. Missing and loving you every moment.
Goodbye my dearest cousin.

Love and kisses,
aRy aka (Abang Didin)

Sometimes you just have to gain an experiene and learn from all your mistakes. I never had any regrets infact it teaches me to be a better person.

Thou this is just a stupid crap quiz, (to that certain someone) I thank you for showing me how wonderful love is.

Never Date a Leo

Dramatic, egotistical, and emotional - a Leo is way too high maintenance for you! And forget about a quick fling with an alluring Leo. It's either everything or nothing with this sign! Instead try dating: Virgo, Capricorn, Pisces, or Cancer

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

AMBITION

"If you can imagine it,

You can achieve it.

If you can dream it,

You can become it."

To accomplish great things, we must not only act, but also dream; not only plan, but also believe.

Do you still remember answering to your school teachers what do you want to be when you grow up?

Well, I still do...

Anyone interested to make a guess?

a) Artist b) Teacher c) Air Steward

*I guess I just have to believe that I can achieve it one day..

Dear Jay,
As requested, I've got my sagging yellow ass up here to answer these crap.
Not to worry coz I do have so much fun going through every single questions asked!

1. What's your name spelled backwards?
Nirza Demahom. (Quite interesting huh)

2. Have you ever licked a 9-volt battery?
Nah..

3. Last time you swam in a pool?
Can't remember. I prefer the beach actually.

4. Type of music you dislike most?
I listen abit of every genre.

5. Do you have cable?
Yeap. Starhub cable.

6. Ever made a prank phone call?
Nope. I got better things to do.

7. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
I would love to try bungee jumping.

8. Chips or popcorn?
Prefer nachos.

9. Have you ever smoked peanut shells?
Don't know what you're talking about but I tried huge cigars.

10. Orange juice or apple?
I hate orange juice.

11. Have you ever won a trophy?
Yeap. The last one was this Hip Hop Dance Competition held at Bukit Panjang Community Club. My group won the 1rst runner up.

12. Ever ordered from an infomercial?
Nope.

13. Ever thrown up in public?
Yeap. Tell me about it.

14. Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding true love?
My goal for the new year is to make lots and lots of money for the beloved family. So what do yout think?

15. Where would you like to go right now?
Someone just mention to me about this 'fried mars bars' at this specific restaurant.

16. Ever spin around in circles until you got so dizzy you fell?
...and not to mention I hurt my elbow and whining in pain at night while sleeping.

17. What's the most comfortable thing you own?
Definitely my pjs pants!

18. Have you ever stolen a sign from a street?
I'm not a thief.

19. What was the last thing you were thinking about?
Was thinking on how am I goin to survive in the new working environment next week. Im really nervous.

20. Is the moon out right now?
Yeap, I love it.

21. What's one of your weird quirks that nobody really understands?
There's two actually.a)Nobody understand why I was born without armpit hairs. It's just so smooth! b)Not to mention that at times I do finger sucking while sleeping.

22. Ever thought about why grass is green?
I can't be bother.

23. Can you build a detailed sand castle?
Well, I tried..

24. What's one of your favorite possessions?
My Kenneth Cole watch. Thanks Paman!

25. Do you like to sleep?
Not really, I just love to laze around.

26. Is your bed comfortable?
What do you think? My bed is my playground.

27. What's the most awkward thing that happened to you in public?
That I actually clean my ass with ice lemon tea in public toilet.. (damn, you wouldn't understand..)

28. Who's the last person that freaked you out?
Feeza. Heard how she's having a real hard time during her flight.

29. How come macaroni and cheese is so good?
I hate macaroni but cheese is good. Can I have cheese hotdogs instead?

30. Is pink the new black?
Nah.. Pink is hot, black is classic.

31. What thought made you cry last?
Ayah. The heart wrenching news about him on the night of Aidilfitri.

"..tak sangka semua jadi juling on Hari Raya Haji. Aku pun yang tua bangka ni masih lagi dapat duit collection. Thanks Paman for the 50 bucks hahaha! Aiseyman kalau everyday hari raya kan best. LOL"