UNTITLED

No one is listening until you make a mistake, but than, there are no mistakes and no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from. Even the teddy is frowning at one point. "If you can't sleep, then get up and do something instead of lying there worrying. It's the worry that gets you, not the lack of sleep."

I LOST IT...

"I have every rights to know about you..."

Are you aware of what you just said?
I thought... " you wouldn't even care".
Why do you even care about me, if you just wouldn't want to bother of what's happening in my life...

It was a huge stupidity of me to exagerate about something just to get an attention from it. I wouldn't blame my loneliness, but was just longing for attention and care from you which I've been craving for. You wouldn't be able to understand this weird feeling deep inside me. The disgusted lame action that I've done had left me a million of questions unanswered and unattended, but that doesn't mean I would have to allow myself to be mocked at without you letting me reply to any of your messages.

"I have every rights to know about you..."

Well, even if you do, why now??
Why do you have to search high and low for the clues...
You have lost the trust in me now but what about the trust that I have in you despite without knowing the real intention of why you're doing all these.
I thought we are just acquaintances, and again, I thought "you wouldn't even care".

If you must know, I used to have a major feelings on you and tried every single way to get attention which I hardly get. I didn't sense the red light, and thought I will put a stop onto it till I hear from you that you care.

Well, the red light blinked at last. You said "you wouldn't even care..."
Though it was a huge blow, I still couldn't understand why it have to end up with the big answer " I have every rights to know about you".

I'm not asking you to stop mocking at me nor asking for apology or sympathy by having this entry. As far I'm concerned, you might even think that this is just another lame attention that I'm craving for.

And to you bro (you know who you are),
I've never had the intention of using you as the bait. Trust me, I never expect all of these to cause such a huge blow, especially for the both of us.
Bro,you know deep within yourself that I do love you and will still love you for no matter what goin to happen. Though I'm scared, I will still have to face the reality that you might have to leave me one day.

aRy

GO NICK!

Hi Azrin ,

What have you been up to bro! Enjoying ORD and hooking up some chicks yah??? hahaha I'm still here in Gloucester Camp and finish this December. After which, I hope to head back to London and find a banking job. Can't wait to catch up with you and the rest soon! Anyway, I'm in this competition; Female Magazine (Spore) 50 Most Gorgeous People. Pls take a minute and vote me in 3 simple steps.

Step 1, go to: http://www.female50gp.com/

Step 2: click on VOTE NOW

Step 3: Click on FEMALE Most Gorgeous Male and Female and click on my picture.

Thanks for your love and support.

* Psst..When are you going to invite me to your house for ketupats and intro to your beautiful sis?? haha

Take care!

Nicholas LeongNick is in the list again. This army mate of mine used to be so close with me in camp during our national service for the past 1 year. Well, what can I say, his office is just next to me and always treat me for 'bandung' during our tea time. If you all must know, he's the winner of the CLEO Most Eligible Bachelor 2006 and now he's competing for the title of Most Gorgeous People in Female magazine. So do vote for him if you happen to read this!

(Ladies, all I can say is that he's single so go catch him while he's still here!!)

GO NICK!!

YOU DON"T KNOW ME

You don't know me well enough to label me.

So, stop putting words in my mouth!

chilling at Attica

Isn't it scary to find out that your bf/gf is having a good time sleeping around with your own friends without you knowing about it?

Lucky me, im still single.

BALIK KAMPONG WOWOWO BALIK KAMPUNG

Everyone, let's raya at KAMPUNG!

"Eh orang kata main mercun membahya. Tapi kita nanyi tak terbakar pun mulut!"

UNCLE'S OPEN HOUSE

Paman Muin's Open House

Two thumbs up for those irresistable chocs!!

TURNED 23

If it's your birthday make some noise!!

If it's your birthday make some noise!!

If it's your birthday make some noise!!

Lucky no 23.

RAYA 06

Camat ari raya everyone! Meh datang rumah aRy...!

And these are my rewards for having a boyish charm! fwahahahahahaha!!

COFFEE SESSION

My craving for mudpie, chicago cheese cake and vanilla latte at Coffee Bean with Idzi and cTea.

PINK THING

aRy: Can I have the pink one please?
Mr: Which one? You mean this pink t-shirt?
aRy: No, no, that pink thing.
Mr: Huh? You mean this pink shoes?
aRy: No! I want that pink thing!
Mr: What pink thing??
aRy: I want that PINK ID.!!! I WANT MY PINK ID. BACK!! I've ORD! ORD! ORD!

*2 years 2 months, time flies so fast...

I NEED A JOB!

I've convinced mama to let me take up Fashion Studies after ORD.

But mainly with one condition;

Get a stable job first!

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(It seems like there's so much goals in my life but yet I'm still so far away from achieving it.

Hope I'm not too LATE for all of these.)

MY SMALL EARS!

Thank god Idzi called or else I would be breaking my fast alone at City Hall. So yah, we end up dining at Fish n Co at Parkmall with Kak Nora, her hubby, Naufal (their 4 year old son) and Ira (Kak Nora's collegue).
Was surprised to know that Ira is only 18 years old thou she look mature with her 'hardly see' face make up. This girl is lucky. She has a wonderful career to start with at such a young age. I wish I could be in her shoes, experiencing how isit feels like being a flight steward at 18.

Anyway, Naufal is so damn cute.

This boy loves to 'chat'.

(while sitting beside me and playing with the straw on the table)

Naufal: Uncle, if I blow a kiss to you, will you catch?

aRy: Of course dear, I will catch and sealed it in my pocket.

Naufal: But why did you put it in your pocket? Why you didn't keep it in your heart?

aRy: (oops) hehehehee well.. ( was about to finish my line when this boy cut me in again)

Naufal: Uncle uncle, you have very small ears..

aRy: (burts out luaghing!) Honey you're so observant!

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Haha god, he's so cute!. I was just so tempted to bite his rosy cheeks.

*I swear, I never received such comment on a 4 year old kid before!

SPECIALLY FOR HER

Specially for her..

Brothers and sisters are as close as hands and feets.
How do people make it through life without a sister?

I cried when I knew her prince charming is taking her away from me.
I cried when I knew she gained a new love.
She's so happy with her life now.
I should be happy for her shouldn't I?

Or was I too scared of loosing her?
Loosing someone that I've loved for 23 years.
Loosing someone that had showered and pampered me like her favourite doll.

Times flies.
We grow older.
We have to adapt the changes in life.
How sellfish could I be for not letting her go.
After all, she will still be my sister even if she has her own life now to lead.
Having a sister is like having a best friend you can't get rid of.

To the outside world we all grow old. But not to brothers and sisters. We know each other as we always were. We know each other's hearts. We share private family jokes. We remember family feuds and secrets, family griefs and joys.

Bless you, my darling, and remember you are always in the heart.

I MISS PAINTING

I miss painting.

The art canvas.

The smell of acrylic paints.

Crayons.

Markers.

All those art mediums.

Doing Art and Crafts.

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Gosh, I miss school...